a new emotion – fatherly affection

Psa 103:13  As a father shows compassion to his children…

When Danielle and I first found out we were pregnant, it took several days to actually sink it.  And then I found it hard to sleep.  I found myself thinking through the details of what we needed to do to prepare for the child, how that affected our financial situation, etc.  As days, a week, and then two weeks passed, I started to get a little excited, but it still seemed a little surreal.

When we visited the doctor and saw the sonogram, I encountered a new emotion that I have never experienced before.  As soon as we saw his (her?) little body, and the little flicker on the screen which indicated (s)he had a heartbeat,  I felt a flood of joy that I wasn’t expecting.  The entire rest of the day I felt a sort of energy and life that all seemed brand new.

The above verse came to mind and it brought some moisture to my eyes.  NOW I have a little hint into what my heavenly Father feels toward me.  Does He feel that joy and excitement over me? I mean, who am I to think that my affection for this little child could be stronger than what He feels for me?  It must be true!

THAT’s going to take some time to wrap my mind (and heart) around.

And what’s more encouraging is that right now I know absolutely nothing about our unborn child!  I don’t even know his/her gender!  🙂  All I know is that I have a deep love that brings me a new joy that I have never experienced before.

I can’t wait to meet him(her) in person.